Postulate #5 Alone.

Alone.

You might be the only one.

The one to stay.

They decided. For you.

Is it true? You have been asked.

You do not know.

You are a volatile personality.

Just yesterday, you were going to thank her…

For being there for you.

Today you feel she has cheated.

Should have thanked her then,

For now, you cannot.

Time flies by, and all you know...

Work hard to make the most of it.

You sleep. To your heart’s content.

Sleep is the best cure.

For sadness. And time.

A pang of jealousy.

Where did it come from?

Thought you were over ‘it’.

You ran away.  As fast as you could.

Cries of children,

of love and care.

Of friendship, and innocence.

Of appreciation.

Of art and play.

You feel detached, still.  

Early morning. Chills.

The cat just came by.

Work half-done. A meeting scheduled.

You search for company. You find none.

One for sorrow, two for joy.

You haven’t seen two in ages.

By Paul

Postulate #4 Life happened !!!

Life is so difficult…

I mean, you cannot know a person.
Every person has his own thoughts and does something for his own interests.

You don't know who is your friend and who isn't?
And even if a thing like friendship exists or not?
It's difficult to figure out how human beings work and how to fit in a society.
Why are there so many rules and customs?
Can we not do anything we desire?
Or say something our heart yearns to say... It's a fake world out there with made up customs that not even all people like...
And every person judges you... from a friend to your family to a stranger.
Why does everyone need to judge you?

And worst is the need to belong...
Why do I need to belong... and adhere to strange rules and behavior and try to blend in... ??
It's not easy!



The thing is the world can be a shitty place to live in if you let your mind see and feel the shit…

Of course, you can ignore it and think you are very happy!

Like most humans do!

But time and again, the thoughts keep coming back, to ruin your sleep and your happy hours…

Postulate #3 Jinga Lala Hu

“When we say we are going to do something, we should at least try our level best to do it!” Just a suggestion.

No earthly pleasures are essential for life. Only the love of life and nature can sustain us if we chose to live so.We can choose to come out of our cages and show our own true self. The one that is trapped within.

Do you remember those times when you sometimes go mad and behave erratically? Might that be because your inner self is somewhere inside there finding those weak links , when it chooses to come out and reveal itself. Not every place, and not in front of anyone, but when we are most at ease, and with those we trust above all…

“Kabhi kabhi dikhta hain humaara woh roop." -The hidden self. The true self. The child within - the One, that is yet to mature. The playful Krishna within us.

When we see someones "that hidden self", we think they have gone mad. We are sometimes amazed, sometimes annoyed, but people true to their hearts love it when they see those shackles broken.

Why would we want to see them like that? Nah, not because we want to share a laugh, but because, until we see them truly, how can we know the real person?

The carefree self. The one that shares no burden. The one that could have existed. Maybe, if those burdens and responsibilities in life were to be removed , we would be a completely different species. Enslaved within the cages of our own creation, how can we escape! Wrapped up in seeking earthly pleasures, which we might very well do without.

But can we do without them? Some have. They have either been known as great men or no one ever heard of them! And they didn't care about that.

I have seen those people who come during Kumbh Mela. So many, who seek that route-an escape!

Family. Expectations. Responsibilities. They have left these behind.
But then turning away from those is in itself a sin, right?

Even if we detach ourselves from our own at one space, we end up making even more relations in the next!
So, do we just carry on as we are and stay happy? Maybe.

HE has made such a maze that you can never come out of it. Seekers are many, finders are few. None, almost.

Each one finds his own trail. In work and family, in hobbies and money, in smoke and alcohol, in food and luxury… To each his own!

As we all know, many things can be as intoxicative as alcohol. A man can get drunk in his passion, in something that he loves without even a sip of wine.
The musicians fly in the flow of their own music.
The artists live in their world of creativity and imagination.
The dreamers dream. And the foreseers envision a world that none can contemplate.
And, architects live in their own castle of dreams!
Or igloos! (if in Antarctica)

And a mom lives in the world of her kids. As does a person thrive in the heart of his love.

So many things to contemplate and yet, as we read this, we are in a rush to do the next job! The world is such!

Just live it…..

Postulate #2 Dreams

So I saw her in my dreams yesterday night…. Lovely she was looking, as always. I don’t remember my dream clearly. It was something related to a performance. She was going to sing… I never knew she could sing. It was a TV broadcast. She had to act out the story of Cinderella  or (someone). The team was ready. I was there, God knows what I was doing. See, this is the problem with dreams. The more you try to remember, the more you keep forgetting. In the end, you just think that the entire thing was a figment of your own imagination. The entire thing was a fuzzy memory.  Now I do remember the ending… She sang the first song really well. I was mesmerized by it. So were a few of the rest. We always judge people by what we expect from them. You cannot expect Sonu Nigam to sing like an amateur, nor could I expect her to sing like a pro the first time ever. But she did really well, I was proud of her. Well, whatever happened after the first song, I do not know, but something unnerved her and she couldn't sing a word. Her voice was restrained. The TV people were rushing here and there to control the damage, turns out it was a live broadcast. I moved my head towards the screen, the background music had been turned up…so the public had no idea what was happening out here. I love chaos, mostly I enjoy chaos. But this time it was her, a friend, and I didn’t seem to like any of it. It was supposed to be a win for her, so she could overcome her issues, so she could prove to everyone that she could do it. I couldn't take it no more. I left. I woke up. 

Postulate #1 Threads

Lessons of life I keep learning..... everyday I learn something new...people might not like what they learn...but the more they do..the more mature they get.... or not... well.... sometimes we move round in circles in life... the richest and the poorest share more similarities than we actually perceive.... like how simple they are at heart.... show-offs are never perfectionists...they still have to complete the circle.....

I have been doing things.... lots of things and I expected people to do the same for me.... well, it was all selfish..i accept... well..what i found out...better keep your expectations low because the world out there does not believe in the barter system.. the people who give...sometimes keep giving.... and extortionists/predators keep taking whatever they can lay their hands on...

A sweet lesson a friend once taught me.... " Whatever you do in life, you do it because you want to do it...not because others expect you to do it, or you expect the world to do the same for you...do it because your heart/brain/gut tells you to do it.... and do not expect others to do the same for you because you did it for them.... "  Every relationship is based on the threads of mutual trust and respect... If the threads are weighed heavily on one side..the relationship is one sided.... Just think of a friend whom you call always and he/she never bothers to call back... then again... think of someone....who always calls you...and you never return the courtesy...  maybe you can relate to it... I do. Did you do the right thing....? I would say, give to those who give to you and let those who ignore you, realize your worth when you are gone... but it is harder said than done... The world does not work that way, does it?

I do not claim to be a writer..... these are postulates I frame for my life... maybe not everyone can relate to them... I am sure I could have used fewer words to express the same... but then... that's not me... 

Guess I will start my first blog. Don't know what to write... I wanted to write about the knife... Then about friendships...about love... Lets see what i finally come to. BrB