Postulate #2 Dreams

So I saw her in my dreams yesterday night…. Lovely she was looking, as always. I don’t remember my dream clearly. It was something related to a performance. She was going to sing… I never knew she could sing. It was a TV broadcast. She had to act out the story of Cinderella  or (someone). The team was ready. I was there, God knows what I was doing. See, this is the problem with dreams. The more you try to remember, the more you keep forgetting. In the end, you just think that the entire thing was a figment of your own imagination. The entire thing was a fuzzy memory.  Now I do remember the ending… She sang the first song really well. I was mesmerized by it. So were a few of the rest. We always judge people by what we expect from them. You cannot expect Sonu Nigam to sing like an amateur, nor could I expect her to sing like a pro the first time ever. But she did really well, I was proud of her. Well, whatever happened after the first song, I do not know, but something unnerved her and she couldn't sing a word. Her voice was restrained. The TV people were rushing here and there to control the damage, turns out it was a live broadcast. I moved my head towards the screen, the background music had been turned up…so the public had no idea what was happening out here. I love chaos, mostly I enjoy chaos. But this time it was her, a friend, and I didn’t seem to like any of it. It was supposed to be a win for her, so she could overcome her issues, so she could prove to everyone that she could do it. I couldn't take it no more. I left. I woke up. 

Postulate #1 Threads

Lessons of life I keep learning..... everyday I learn something new...people might not like what they learn...but the more they do..the more mature they get.... or not... well.... sometimes we move round in circles in life... the richest and the poorest share more similarities than we actually perceive.... like how simple they are at heart.... show-offs are never perfectionists...they still have to complete the circle.....

I have been doing things.... lots of things and I expected people to do the same for me.... well, it was all selfish..i accept... well..what i found out...better keep your expectations low because the world out there does not believe in the barter system.. the people who give...sometimes keep giving.... and extortionists/predators keep taking whatever they can lay their hands on...

A sweet lesson a friend once taught me.... " Whatever you do in life, you do it because you want to do it...not because others expect you to do it, or you expect the world to do the same for you...do it because your heart/brain/gut tells you to do it.... and do not expect others to do the same for you because you did it for them.... "  Every relationship is based on the threads of mutual trust and respect... If the threads are weighed heavily on one side..the relationship is one sided.... Just think of a friend whom you call always and he/she never bothers to call back... then again... think of someone....who always calls you...and you never return the courtesy...  maybe you can relate to it... I do. Did you do the right thing....? I would say, give to those who give to you and let those who ignore you, realize your worth when you are gone... but it is harder said than done... The world does not work that way, does it?

I do not claim to be a writer..... these are postulates I frame for my life... maybe not everyone can relate to them... I am sure I could have used fewer words to express the same... but then... that's not me... 

Guess I will start my first blog. Don't know what to write... I wanted to write about the knife... Then about friendships...about love... Lets see what i finally come to. BrB